Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I heard you lover saying all the things I dreamed of hearing saying all my tears turned in to a stream that formed a river for you to sail to me thanking God for my tears cause they helped you see through infernos showing you that it's me you shouldn't let go.
I hear you baby maybe it's my mind but I fear you baby not like a monster but like a promise I can't keep to be honest it's just me
I can't help it I need all of me to give to my daughter and yes I'm selfish see I've tried fairy tales and they all failed.
Its difficult to think of intertwining our lives I'm the mother of someone else's child do you want that in a wife? You should share your first with someone who deserves you someone who could serve you unconditionally someone whose going through there first too.
See I've made my bed and I will lay in it take every chances I can to play in it. I apologize for being average I apologize but I will not allow you to carry my baggage.
I made these choices and there's no other way I'll have it.
Monday, May 28, 2012
Your Child...see nothing can make you any less mom or dad to that child and at the end of the day who you are when you're alone with that child is what they often tend to remember they tend to hold on to it. See you can become a victim of baby mama/daddy syndrome if you feed all of you energy in to the anger or hatred or any lost emotions you maybe still harboring for your ex partner. Or you can simply be Mother/Father and love the new life you brought into the world and focus on that. See I look at it as relationships are like butterfly's your lover can be your food your going to always need food to grow stay strong and live or your lover could have simply been your cocoon there to help you grow and get your wings and butterfly's never morn the lost of there cocoons it was just a phase in the journey. So maybe your lover was just a phase in your journey now you have your wings (your child)....so don't let anyone clip your wings
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
Misplaced emotions lost in him while laying on the Ocean floor.
Door ways to hidden feelings, feeling close to hopeless.
Yes I love you no I dont want to no I dont want to still I want you
Friendly flirting hiding jealousy mistaken friendship for more then...
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
I saw you yesterday where? i don't really know it was somewhere between my new and old home somewhere between broken and perfect but I saw you. As your eyes envy me lovingly forcing me to revert to losing my self esteem instead of my selfishness i just watched your eyes go right through me making me wonder if you ever knew me?