We Had A Good Run...No Looking Back

If you loved me like you say you do when you ran away...you would have let me stay with you

Facebook Hiatus...

The people in my life tend to hold a lot of value to me but it seems such feelings are not being returned. Which has cause me from kind of hiding from social networks or at lease facebook. It may seem sort of childish of me to deactivate my account just to get away from less then a handful of people but its what I feel is needed at this moment in time. See certain people wouldn't give me or my life one thought if they didn't see me post a status or a pic and its not little acquaintance its people i thought I was really close to but maybe it comes with the growing out of people aspect of life. Anyhow I will eventually decide if I should keep or sever these relationships.

Perfect Timing

Words may never equate appreciation just as tears may never show an accurate account for pain. Life has its own way of doing things its own way of viewing dreams till everything is beautiful we cling to people loosing self it may be worth it.  Not always and some friendships cause more damage then hate when they only point out loneliness but remember life has its own way of doing things its own way of viewing dreams so in perfect timing life brought him in almost to cushion the blow from everyone fading slow and I am honored  to make his acquaintance learn his ways its like a brand new place  bringing back a comfort that old friends misplaced...

This I've been struggling and this =) helps

You are my sunshine...My only sunshine 

June-16

Who Knew the rose that grew from the concrete would blossom and plant so many seeds?


Its so many things time forgets to prepare you for so many unexpected ups and down but to have someone there to listen or even to feel like they understand what you're going though makes it easier. I will never be able to equate the exact effect this mans life had on mine but Lord knows i'm thankful for someone to be able to understand me and never met me.


 June 16, 1971-Forever

"A work of art is the unique result of a unique temperament." - Oscar Wilde 

Follow the leader

Lifeless whispers from long ago that never make a sound
Still i find myself stuck in the allusion proving everything and nothing at all
Falling deeper into this fantasy thats really taunting me with all that reach for but cant see
Why have I been so cursed...cursed with forgiveness and trust building pyramids out of lust
Ultimately in quicksand but I find I'm the only one sinking the only one patient and thinking
so am I alone or have I misread or maybe somewhere back there I was mislead

First Become...

For What Its Worth

I’m selfish, envy, relentless, cold

I’m embers burning melted gold formless mold me endless hold me?

But not too tight.

I’m careless worry, untold stories of retroactive time, lost memoirs of retrograde minds.

I’m broken patterns chosen to form something better Indomitable and cleaver.

Strong minded cause I know better.

I’m empty, pitiful, physical and hypercritical

Im aphoristically inclined look ahead and not behind told these things take time

But who has time?

So for what its worth

im pundit and hurt

lazy and work

 I’m lost and I’m gain

 I’m proud and ashamed

 done things that I hold blame.

So what is it worth really? If no one else hears me or see’s me remember I’m only you’re not watching TV. So I’m ungrateful and stingy fallacious when need be sexual and needy did I say sexual  I meant highly intellectual self-conscious and greedy.

So please don’t fault me.

As if I was looking for GOD...

Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions.
Anais Nin

Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic.
Anais Nin

Love Them As Long As You Can

Live

The Theory Theory...

Learning 

Living 

Changing 

Giving 

Mistaken 

Soul

Breath Taking 

Mate

Someone else's

Losing 

I'm selfish 

Prideful 

LET GO....  

Just Me...

Falling in love to jump out of reality
Falling into reality to jump out of love
In a world where its just me...

Sitting on clouds never recognizing we've gotten so high
trying to go away without saying goodbye...
Hello was already so bitter sweet
trying to remind them its just me...

...to be continued

“God is love, I said, but art's the possibility of forms, and shadows are the source of identity.” 
― Ralph Ellison, Juneteenth

I am feeling some kind of way today bare with me...

“We look too much to museums. The sun coming up in the morning is enough.” 
― Ralph Ellison, Shadow and Act