Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Its so many things time forgets to prepare you for so many unexpected ups and down but to have someone there to listen or even to feel like they understand what you're going though makes it easier. I will never be able to equate the exact effect this mans life had on mine but Lord knows i'm thankful for someone to be able to understand me and never met me.
June 16, 1971-Forever
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Still i find myself stuck in the allusion proving everything and nothing at all
Falling deeper into this fantasy thats really taunting me with all that reach for but cant see
Why have I been so cursed...cursed with forgiveness and trust building pyramids out of lust
Ultimately in quicksand but I find I'm the only one sinking the only one patient and thinking
so am I alone or have I misread or maybe somewhere back there I was mislead
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Falling into reality to jump out of love
In a world where its just me...
Sitting on clouds never recognizing we've gotten so high
trying to go away without saying goodbye...
Hello was already so bitter sweet
trying to remind them its just me...
...to be continued
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I heard you lover saying all the things I dreamed of hearing saying all my tears turned in to a stream that formed a river for you to sail to me thanking God for my tears cause they helped you see through infernos showing you that it's me you shouldn't let go.
I hear you baby maybe it's my mind but I fear you baby not like a monster but like a promise I can't keep to be honest it's just me
I can't help it I need all of me to give to my daughter and yes I'm selfish see I've tried fairy tales and they all failed.
Its difficult to think of intertwining our lives I'm the mother of someone else's child do you want that in a wife? You should share your first with someone who deserves you someone who could serve you unconditionally someone whose going through there first too.
See I've made my bed and I will lay in it take every chances I can to play in it. I apologize for being average I apologize but I will not allow you to carry my baggage.
I made these choices and there's no other way I'll have it.
Monday, May 28, 2012
Your Child...see nothing can make you any less mom or dad to that child and at the end of the day who you are when you're alone with that child is what they often tend to remember they tend to hold on to it. See you can become a victim of baby mama/daddy syndrome if you feed all of you energy in to the anger or hatred or any lost emotions you maybe still harboring for your ex partner. Or you can simply be Mother/Father and love the new life you brought into the world and focus on that. See I look at it as relationships are like butterfly's your lover can be your food your going to always need food to grow stay strong and live or your lover could have simply been your cocoon there to help you grow and get your wings and butterfly's never morn the lost of there cocoons it was just a phase in the journey. So maybe your lover was just a phase in your journey now you have your wings (your child)....so don't let anyone clip your wings
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
Misplaced emotions lost in him while laying on the Ocean floor.
Door ways to hidden feelings, feeling close to hopeless.
Yes I love you no I dont want to no I dont want to still I want you
Friendly flirting hiding jealousy mistaken friendship for more then...
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
I saw you yesterday where? i don't really know it was somewhere between my new and old home somewhere between broken and perfect but I saw you. As your eyes envy me lovingly forcing me to revert to losing my self esteem instead of my selfishness i just watched your eyes go right through me making me wonder if you ever knew me?
Monday, May 7, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Reality makes doors with imaginary keys and hearts make homes with imaginary lease so whats real? And children fight wars with imaginary beast so whose killed? Imagination trumped by fiction which turns to lies for infinite wisdom which no one holds so what's the difference?
Friday, April 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
There has been many choices placed at my feet some I knew I would kick right away other not so sure. There have been other choices I only chose to please the rebel in me. Although lately my choices have all been more like forced. I'm not use to being forced...
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
So lets play catch up shall we?